If I saw a theme emerging from this spring, it would definitely have something to do with fear. I'm noticing it in my heart like never before. God has been gracious to let me get quiet and hear my own resounding voice in my head, telling me things like "It will never get better" or "You have no safe place." Slowly, He's helped me to speak love and truth into those fears and even open up to those who love me so they can help too. Slowly, I'm seeing fear eradicated.
But I forgot about Holy Fear. I forgot about the healthy, reverential fear that God's Word speaks so much of. I forgot that the Bible says that the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom. Truth be told, maybe I choose to forget because I don't understand. Where we think of fear as trembling, frightening, dreadful, scary - it's hard for us to wrap our minds around a healthy fear that leads us to awe and worship the Lord.
One thing I've shared with women time and again is that I have a prayer and wild hope that our generation of women won't shy away from God's Word when we don't understand it. I pray that when we read or hear something that bristles us, we wouldn't immediately try to shape it into something we want to believe, but that we'll approach it with trust that He is good and He is for us.
So once again, I'm getting quiet and still. Asking the Lord to replace my human dread with the Holy reverent fear of a daughter who know's that she is held by a loving Father. I'm opening His Word with a heart of trust and hope, intent on growing and not being offended by something that is much more pure and wise than I am. I am pressing into Holy Fear.
The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, and the knowledge of the Holy One is insight. Proverbs 9:10
Who will not fear, O Lord, and glorify your name? For you alone are holy. All nations will come and worship you, for your righteous acts have been revealed. Revelations 15:4
There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love. We love because he first loved us. 1 John 4:18-19