This morning I told Nick that I felt like the "flash-forward" version of myself.
If we were in a sitcom a few years ago and thinking about marriage and children, I would've had a flash forward and imagined the worst - myself, but not myself.
No makeup, many babies running around, desheveled - with glasses on and coffee in hand.
Thankfully - I know this version is absolutely not the worst version of myself, it's a bump in the road for sure - but right where Jesus wants me. The picture that I wanted to be here: a successful, peaceful, beautiful, luxurious mama is not really the goal I'm after any more. When Glory charges at me from across the room, or Elias cudddles up next to me, or when Benj dies laughing at me - they really like what they see, and that's good.
Anyhow, my realization that I'm living in the flash-forward has kicked my little (hahahahahaha) rear into gear. It's time to use what I've got. I don't have a ton of money so I can't go buy a new wardrobe. I also can't quite decorate my house the way I'd like to, but I can absolutely improvise with what I've got in the closet and plan how I'd love to affordably decorate once we're able.
So, here is step 1:
(me wearing earrings that are not my normal pearls
& a pre-pregnancy shirt I dug out of my closet)
(and 2/3 of the cutest kids in the world)
Step 2 is inspiration:
(some websites I've been perusing)
(and my friend Kim's house. If you know Kim B., tell her to start a blog PLEASE)
So that's where I'm starting.
Earrings and inspiration.