In the last year, as it pertains to writing and teaching, the enemy has been near and loud - speaking some serious doubt and fear into my life. That liar has told me that I'm stupid and silly, not intellectual enough and overly emotional. I've entertained anxiety, insecurity, and rejection. There's been the temptation for me to feel too far left and too far right or overly spiritual and ridiculously worldly all at once.
It's been very interesting to process and fight these fears as I travel to teach and as I write a book. Sometimes I've experienced victory, and sometimes I've hidden and shrunk back. But I've felt the Lord's mercy in both of those responses - and craved freedom more than ever before.
I've found peace in an unexpected place: not in the encouragement of others, not in time or worldly success. I've found peace in communing with God and saying SO WHAT about any accusation throw my way. So what if I'm not the smartest? So what if I don't say it perfectly? So what if they reject me? So what if I'm misunderstood?
I've found peace in communing with God and saying SO WHAT about any accusation throw my way.
I'm not here for the approval and I'm not in it for the accolades, so instead I'll become obsessed with the problems God has given me words to talk about. I'll keep talking and showing up, pointing to Him, and remembering that it was all for Him, by Him, and through Him anyhow.
And all that is a lengthy and wordy way to say that yesterday, when some of my fears were still at a fever pitch - I signed a deal to keep writing books with Zondervan for a few more years. I think the team there is the greatest in the world and I'm so thankful they saw fit to let this girl with all the emotions, and words, and affection for pink write about God. I'm so thankful they take my wide eyed manifestos and turn them into tools for the women of God to utilize as they take their place in the kingdom.
And here's my encouragement to you: if you feel like the enemy is lying to your soul (he probably is), tell him, "so what?". Ignore him and get with the Creator. We don't have to bargain and barter to build our identities - we don't have to defend ourselves because we're upheld by the breastplate of righteousness. That enemy of your soul is nothing but a schoolyard bully taking cheap shots to anyone who will listen, so just ignore him and move on.
That enemy of your soul is nothing but a schoolyard bully taking cheap shots to anyone who will listen, so just ignore him and move on.
I also want to just specifically say a massive thanks to the team that helps me write books, because I'm not sure I've ever done that in blog form. Jenni, my agent, is the gal who pushes me to be faithful to what God has called me to. Stephanie is my book editor who literally reads every word time and again, shifting them and moving them so that they're accessible and legible and helpful. I've described Sara, my curriculum editor, as the wisest woman in America - she loves the Bible fiercely and believes women should absolutely be taught to use it. She's so good at what she does. Alicia and Jennifer help us steward this message from the very get-go and Carly has incredible insight about devotionals and so far I have so loved working with her. These are just a few of the women that make it happen, but I just don't get to talk about them too much and wanted to take a minute to say thanks.
And! Since it's been exactly one million years since I blogged, here are some updates:
Dance Stand Run preorder gifts launched!
You can get a ton of fun gifts, including an eBook I wrote with a bunch of friends about running on mission. There are prints, worship music, fun leadership groups, and HATS. Head to the Dance Stand Run website to see more.
School started back!
And all the mamas said "Amen!"
I pray y'all are doing so well and able to stand firm against the enemies' schemes at work in your life. He may be obnoxious and loud, but he already lost. Tell him so what and ignore him. Jesus is mighty in you.