rejoice, day tres.

... but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.
Isaiah 40:31

To think of the hundreds of cheesy youth group songs I could conjure up about this particular piece of scripture. To think of all the times I sang those songs, looked at those stickers, saw those t-shirts and didn't totally understand how beautiful the strength of the Lord is.

Lately I've been telling Nick that before this pregnancy is over, I'd like him to take our handy flip video camera and film me getting out of bed in the morning. It's an actual laugh. For some reason, that is when my crazy pelvic pain is the worst and I have to pull myself up with the bedside table and I genuinely limp/walk hunched over for the first few minutes. It's the closest I've ever come to real physical disability and I know it's still crazy minor compared to what some people live with every day.

But it's not just that...
It's at lunch with I spill the whole jug of milk and both kids are crying,
it's when a friend is hurting and I feel utterly useless,
when I even imagine trying to get all three of my kids up
or down the stairs in a few weeks,
when someone hurts me and I feel lost and alone.
I got nothing - no hope, no way to do life on my own.

Till Jesus, that is. I just wait on Him, surrender, and all the
strength I could ever ask for or imagine is there.

Like if Elias could suddenly pick up this giant pumpkin.
Which of course, he probably can. Well, Glor can for sure.

signs of strength to help me rejoice today:
- I should be terrified to be the wife of a church planter, to move cross
country again, with three kids under three. And honestly, when I pray about
it, I know He will make me able.
- One area of my life where I feel like I've waited on the Lord
and I'm now running - my marriage. There may be seasons
to come where it's more like crawling, but for now, I see
God strengthening us in the same ways... at the same time.
- good friends help me to feel the strength of God.
Either by sharing a laugh or sharpening me with correction, I'm
better off with them and much tougher.

your turn.