a fleshy pile of grace - a #wholeladies update

A month ago, Ellen and I set out to start this whole ladies thing. We decided to show both sides of getting healthy - the heart and the actual plan. We were going to do whole30, a stringent one month cleanse, and talk here about our hearts and what was going on with us. I had a great first week, had to quit whole30 on my second week due to nursing, skipped the third week because I was so discouraged, and I'm here now for my recap. 

I always say Naptime Diaries is more of a coffee date and less of a trophy case, so in that thinking, here is my honest coffee date recap. As a whole lady, I feel a little broken. My health feels a little broken. My heart feels a little broken as it relates to my health. I think pregnancy + winter + moving a year ago + facing an upcoming move + newborn season have left me feeling very fragmented and far from myself. I don't feel super in tune with the Lord or my self or my body or creativity or life or any of the things that help me feel WHOLE. 

Now. I'm not going all womp womp on you. I'm just being honest. At the end of this 30 days, I don't have a nugget of wisdom to share or a three step recap on how you can be more whole like me:). I have a fleshy, tired, pile of grace who is looking to her Dad for wisdom. And I have a heart full of hope. It took 30 days of Whole Ladies for me to be really honest and say, I need refreshment and counsel and fulfillment from the only one who makes me whole - even in these fragmented seasons. 

Ellen and I are going to keep talking about #wholeladies - once a month and I'm not going to abandon talking about the strategy side of things. I'm developing a strategic plan to help my outward self feel more whole and healthy and I'll talk about that next month, but I also have a heart plan. In addition to doing SheReadsTruth plans, I'm going to spend the next month meditating on and praying Psalm 16 and I'll leave you with that in a second. 

Thanks ladies for walking with us through this month and thank you for all your encouragement as we all seek to become whole ladies! Meet us back in a month? 

Psalm 16
I say to the Lord, “You are my Lord;
I have no good apart from you.”
As for the saints in the land, they are the excellent ones,
in whom is all my delight.
The sorrows of those who run after another god shall multiply;
their drink offerings of blood I will not pour out
or take their names on my lips.
The Lord is my chosen portion and my cup;
you hold my lot.
The lines have fallen for me in pleasant places;
indeed, I have a beautiful inheritance.
I bless the Lord who gives me counsel;
in the night also my heart instructs me.
I have set the Lord always before me;
because he is at my right hand, I shall not be shaken.
Therefore my heart is glad, and my whole being rejoices;
my flesh also dwells secure.
For you will not abandon my soul to Sheol,
or let your holy one see corruption.
You make known to me the path of life;
in your presence there is fullness of joy;
at your right hand are pleasures forevermore.